Onwards

Music: So Pure – Alanis Morissette

 Things are finally falling into place. I got my deferment and I was made to sign an underlying contract stating that I shouldn’t and wouldn’t apply for deferment after this is done. I don’t have a problem with that anyway; I have no intention of dragging this all any further so it all worked out. There is just one more thing I have to deal with and then I can finally heave a sigh of relief. Just a little while more before I can celebrate and pop some champagne.

 I’ve had a crush on John Cusack since I was 13. He’s so handsome with such kind eyes. He’s got a face I can spent years studying. I just watched Martian Child and there was a line in the movie when he said, “I deserve you, I really do.” If he ever said something like that to me, oh, one can only wish. I have a feeling I’ll meet him one day, I’m sure the people I know in LA know people who know people who know him. I’m sure he’s straight as an arrow but he embodies the physical aspects and the charismatic draw of someone I can grow old with…

 I just realised that I have been chowing down on expired protein bars the past 4 days. I have an oatmeal raisin one when I get out of bed everyday and I was doing the same thing today; just chewing and thinking and staring into space when I started reading the label. I did a double take when I saw the best-by date: 08/21/07. It expired on 21 August 2007. It took me half a second to register that fact that it was 2008 now. That certainly explains why I have been constipated the past 3 days.

 At least I realised it before I finished the whole box. I guess, like most things in my life, it’s better to reach the point of finally later and be able to move forward than to not get there at all.

 And oh, I’m pissed off at WordPress. I saved an entry to go edit some features for a couple of minutes and when I started looking for my entry, it was nowhere to be found. I have to redo the entry and I hate doing so. It’s just a bloody waste of time.